Curse of Curves

Welp, I'm not really curvy actually.. Just my boobs. For those who don't know me...I have 32DD's. I absolutely loathe the fact that I have big boobs! Their is NOTHING, NOTHING good about them.. besides the attention from guys and the fact that girls get jealous of them and even that gets old.

Big boobs SUCK. Mainly because we live in a world that idolizes women with big boobs but also pushes their woman to be stick thin. So, clothes are made proportionately to the general public. Meaning woman who are smaller sizes generally have smaller boobs and woman who are bigger sizes have bigger boobs. Well here is my problem in this genre.. I am a size 2 with DD's... Therefore I can buy an extra small shirt, dress, etc and have my boobs falling out or i can buy an extra large and have my boobs perfectly situated and look 10 pounds bigger. I am also NOT ok with the fact that Bigger size clothes.. aren't always so fashionable! Why is that? Is the bigger person not entitle to looking good? Now.. adult sizes in general tend to run bigger and our fashionable in all means... but that is not MY style that is not the style of a younger adult...Frustrating!

I HATE bra shopping because They don't make the cute bras size DD.. not DD is reserved for the Grandma bras in plain black,white and nude. I also struggle with a bra that actually SUPPORTS my boobs. I again, don't know how they haven't made a CUTE bra that actually supports my boobs. In case, you didn't know big boobs tend to sag (gross word) more and give people back problems. I feel this issue needs to be address. Same Goes with bathing suit shopping. I'm not a fan of the beach.. but lately I think it has to do more with the fact that I hate shopping for bathing suits cause none of them ever actually fit. I'm an active person and although, I like to tan at the beach I also, want to be able to go run around and play; which is impossible when my bathing suits can't keep my boobs under control. I went onto Victoria Secrets website to look at Swimsuits.. since the sell them by bra size and not Small to Large. I was happy to see that they had an area for bigger boobs. Only to be disappointed in 1. the fact that most of the bathing suits were ugly and 2. the all stop at the cup size D. One site I went too.. only had ONE DD option and it was this hideous ty-dye tankini. I am sure the ty-dye tankini is cute to some people and they love it, but I believe I am not the only big boobed person out there who is upset by the lack of choices we have out there!

Bristol Palin

For those of you who are not sure who Bristol Palin is, she is the daughter of former governor of Alaska Sarah Palin. Bristol being known for being 18 and pregnant at the time of the 2008 election. This was consider to be a "scandal" given she was a teen parent and well her was running for vice president on the republican ticket.

Bristol has since then had her son Tripp and separated from her baby daddy Levi Johnston. She now speaks to teens about the prevention of teen pregnancy and has openly spoken about how had it is to be a teen mom. What shocks me is that a lot of media outlets are slamming her for this! Saying she is whining and doesn't love her child. This is unbelievable, here we have someone who is being honest and being a role model. She is saying it's hard, she is saying she wishes she would have waited, that doesn't mean she doesn't love her son, it means she just wishes she could be able to support her son better, therefore waiting till she was older. Would you rather have her going around saying..."oh, this is sooo easy...every teen should have kids" ?! What would you be more upset with.. your daughter coming home pregnant and saying " oh but Bristol Palin says it's easy"... To all the haters. FUCK YOU. And to say "oh.. my daughter wouldn't do that" ... remember the teens involved in The Pregnancy Pact? Those were girls who were not educated on contraception and wanted to be teen moms like Jamie Lynn Spears.

Proof Read.

I suck at proof reading. I don't do it. I type what I want to say... spell check and than post it. So I am sorry to whoever has ever read this and realized that some of what I write does not make sense (again probably doesn't help that I type them at the crack of dawn) I swear I am an educated person who excels at English. I'm just lazy at spell checking.

Anyways, I am now back in Toluca Lake living a happy life. The rest of my trip in San Jose was alright. Saturday I had Tea at Lisa's Tea Treasures in the Pruneyard with my Aunts Debbie & Diana, my cousin Taylor and my aunt's boyfriends mother. We had such a lovely time and I ended up buying a tea pot and two mugs as well as some tea. Later that night we ended going and seeing Kick Ass. Which was a pretty good movie. Personally, I think the movie was only good due to their AMAZING fight scenes. Sunday we ran some errands and I visited my Grandma's grave leaving her a Mother's Day card and flowers. Yesterday (May 3rd) was actually 2 years since she passed = (. Once I finally arrived in Burbank, after an hour delay. I picked up my Pink Leopard Print Betsey Johnson Travel bag up from baggage claim ONLY to see that it had be ripped down the sides. Normally I wouldn't care... but this is a fairly new, EXPENSIVE and cute bag. So now, I have to give them my bag.. so they can send it to Dallas, so Southwest HQ can decide how they want to compensate me. After dealing with that and arriving home to a disarrayed apartment....thanks to my lovely cats. I decided to set up my Wii and sync it up with my Netflix so I can stream movies from my comp. to my TV.. which would save me bundles of cash on ONDemand... unfortunately, It refused to connect to my Wi-Fi... which made me day THAT much better.

Better News...
Netflix now has WEEDS:Season 5 on watch Instantly(on my comp.) which I have been waiting forever for! Now just have to wait for Dexter and The Tudors newer seasons to do the same thing! Went on a long walk and started posting fliers for Dog Walking,Baby sitting or House Sitting Jobs and had lunch at Paty's learned more about my secret admirer.... Story is this guy comes in to Paty's everyday for years and orders take-out one day he saw me and now comes in and asks about me. According to the manager he has never noticed anybody till me and I guess, he saw my Republican sticker and liked it... cause " I don't act like it". So.. today they were telling me that he is a Personal Trainer who used go to USC. My mother thinks this is a potential stalker... but to be honest in Toluca Lake.... this has been normal for me. I am also, reading Sean Hannity's new book Conservative Victory and definitely enjoying it. Although, it is so frustrating to know the truth about Obama and see people still supporting him. Now, it is time for me to get back to sewing.

Can We Pretend...

...That Airplanes In The Night Sky, Are Like Shooting Stars? I Can Really Use A Wish Right Now...Wish Right Now...

Basically, A lyric from my favorite song at the moment. Airplanes- B.o.B ft. Hayley Williams and Eminem. Anyways.. life. I arrived in San Jose on Thurs. and can pretty much already can't wait to be home in Toluca Lake. It's interesting how being in San Jose makes me feel more "childish" I guess. My personality for the most part changes when I come back. When I'm here, I just want my mom to do everything... although ironically, I don't really see her... although at time when I'm in Toluca Lake I do miss San Jose, but that's because I become lonely.

So far, I just want to be home. Being back has been drama. I'm going to be honest Brandon's mom is crazy, I have to like her cause she's Brandon's mom, but I am so happy that Brandon is done with her. I have never meant a more selfish,immature 45 year old in my life. It is frustrating because I don't want stuff to be strained between us, but she really does it to herself and I had enough of it when it started affecting Brandon and bringing him down. Anyways, due to this drama I was kicked off the phone line that I shared with them. So today my mom, Brandon and I spent hours at the T-Mobile store setting up our account. I'm going to be honest, I am disappointed that I cannot use my old # which I have had since I was 13 but I guess it is something I will have to get used too, I am happy that I get to have My blackberry back = ) Today, I am doing Tea with the woman on my Dad's side of the family and I am really actually excited for it! Sad my Grandma can't be there, makes even harder since it's only 2 days away from when she passed.

I can never end this properly, cause I get so tired I just want to sleep... keep you readers aka ONE reader ha and it's my mom.. updated. Night <3