I Call It Progress

Warning Some Foul Language Ensues

I HATE SPIDERS.
They are my mortal enemy and like many people I have no good reason to hate them.
It's more of a phobia really, which in that case would lead me to the wise words of my Psychology 3 Professor "there is always a reason for our phobias, no matter how weird or random they seem" I would have to disagree with her. This is also coming from a professional who was shocked and almost laughed at my fear of being touched by feet, my fear of rock slides(which does have a logical reasoning behind it) and my fear of amputations/amputees. Anyways, like I said.. I have no real reason to hate these creatures... besides the fact that they really are creepy and crawly and just "AGH!".
SO, This is what I call progress. I live on my own. Meaning no more waking Dad or Mom in the middle of the night to kill the spider (although Mom is really no help), it means I have to woman up and do it on my own. Which is hard, Because all I want to do is scream, run out of the room close to tears yelling "KILL IT! KILL IT! KILL IT!" . So, this leads me to my predicament; around midnight, a small but not TOO small of a spider was spotted at the edge of my ceiling. Too high for me to kill. I continued reading my book... but kept my eye on it, waiting for it to make it way down the wall and be in perfect range for my shoe. I am aware that smacking it with my shoe, in an apartment complex, where I share walls is utterly rude; but frankly I don't give a shit. This is a life of death matter! Under no circumstances will I have squish a spider we toilet paper.. I like it to be quick easy and painless. I know the bitch his dead, I don't need to feel it eighty creepy crawling legs squirming through the tissue. Unfortunately, this spider is on to me, he knows I have my eyes set on him and he knows the price he will pay is he decides to descend down the walls. It's is now 5:30 am... almost 6 hours after the initial sighting and he has managed to make his way round the room, but never faltering from being on the ceiling. He is now, at a stand still. Which is driving me insane. I am tired my eyes, can barely stay open, my vision is blurry, but there is no way I will be able to sleep till I know this fucker is dead.
This Is Progress. I have not screamed, I have not ran out of my apartment. I am handling this like a mature adult.

Funny thing is this blog was originally going to be about my kitten Martini and was going to written later in the day after I had gotten sleep and had been productive and I will get to writing that blog..I just needed to write something now to keep me awake.

Countdown Until My 21st Birthday: 59 Days

That's What They Call Life.

I find that I feel that there is SO much going on in my life, but when I really sit back and think about my days... there really is nothing going on...

Bailey has moved down here with me... which is nice = ) Bailey now lives with me, because my mom moved to Hollister. That was bittersweet since she move out of our home of 18 years. 18 years of my life were in that home.... so, it was hard. Although, I do like the new house she has moved into. Anyways... Bailey has been Bailey. She is a mini star down here. Really every where we go SHE makes friends and really has helped me get to know people. At the moment I live in a studio. So that would be Bailey, my three cats (Aurora,Pandora and Martini) and I all living under the same roof. To be honest it's not bad but Bailey needs more space. So, after Bailey moved in everything was going pretty well. Until.. the neighbor below complained that Bailey was too loud at night... this is a complete lie.. given Bailey sleeps with me ALL night.. that dog is spoiled.. she refuses to sleep in her dog bed.. which has now basically become the cats bed... Anyways.. My manager decided that Bailey had to go. This had come literally at the worst most Ironic time too. The day before I had quit my job... and also took time to unpack those extra boxes I had lying around my Living room/office/bedroom... and after I had permanently made the studio my address. This lead to a weak of uncertainty with the fact that I had no cash.. I was behind on bills and now basically had to find a new place in Toluca Lake, that accepted animals and was bigger. Although, I was uncertain inside... I kept telling myself that I had to have faith that it would all work out and a week later it basically did. I ended finding a beautiful 2 bedroom 1 bath a street away from where I am now. That accepts my pets and isn't CRAZY expensive (although I am getting help from my loving mother) and another new job. Also, My manager decided to tell me today that Bailey can stay and I am good (as long a the lady below doesn't complain again). I'm hopefully getting this 2 bedroom but if not. Everything really worked itself out.. at least for now. Who knows what tomorrow will bring me.

In other news. I am excited for this new job. I work in the entertainment industry and I only work on weekends = ) So, lets hope.. none of my random issues happen to screw this one up. I went on a photo shoot for head shots yesterday in downtown LA and really the experience was "eh" we were losing light, it was windy and well since my photographer didn't have a permit we had to cut the shoot short. I was suppose to get my photos on a CD but they asked if I could come back next Monday in the morning for better shots. However...I don't think I will. The photographer was rude(not in person but through messages) Before the shoot he scolded me on the photos of my profile being as they are not professional and that I shouldn't have a couples picture up. First off I am NOT a professional model. I do not claim to be one and I am just starting out so you get what you get...Than after the shoot he messaged me to scold me for bringing an escort to my shoot who is also my Fiancé. Telling me again that it was unprofessional of me and that none of the other models did it. So here is my response to him (since I cannot say it on the site, cause that would be really unprofessional) I ALWAYS bring an escort says so on my profile. The escort will always be male and for now it will always be my Fiancé because A: he can protect me and B: he's the only guy I know it Los Angeles. As far as, the other amateur models not bring an escort. They are DUMB and that is how you hear the story of the aspiring model who went to a photo shoot by herself and got killed. And if we want to talk about being Professional... a professional probably wouldn't shoot me in his sweats. A Professional would call his model when the location has changed.. so she doesn't have to get lost in Downtown LA for 45 min. to find the location and a professional would have gotten the god damn permits in the first PLACE. = )

Countdown Until My 21st Birthday: 67 days

I AM SO EXCITED! I have No idea what I am going to do! I want it to be wild and crazy and big, yet chic, sophisticated and small lol... Mostly everyone I know won't be 21 yet.. So, I have can't decide what I want to do. I really want to go to dinner somewhere nice than party the rest of the night away at the Chateau Marmont.... but who knows.... plus that's A LOT of money... but it would be so memorable I think (hopefully in a good way) As for gifts... I can't think of anything I REALLY want.. besides my Mercedes ML350.. There are things I would like to have but nothing I really WANT. Although, I will be happy with whatever I get. Even if it's just my friends showing up... but gifts are nice = P

And that is my life as of now one big clusterfuck of whatever. = )

Worst Week EVER

You Hear... people have Bad Days.. well I have Bad weeks... UGH. So Beginning on the 19th... I got news that an acquaintance of mine... died. = ( RIP Eric Woodlief...

On Tuesday... I enjoyed a wonderful day at Disneyland with Natasha...

On the way home from Irvine.. my tire blew out at 10pm on the 5 in the middle of Griffith Park...
On Wednesday My Computer Broke Down = (
On Thursday Brandon and I decided to go visit friends at Disneyland.. even though He had a thing for work in the morning and I was going to leave to visit my mom up North. On Our way back we were detoured 3 times.. getting a lost and we didn't arrive at my apartment until 2 am!!!!!!!!!
I can't remember the other things that happened to me but it was a constant week of bad luck.
This Monday the 26th I went on my 2nd interview for MJ Marketing and shadow a trainer for a day... later that night I got the job! YAY! Than on my 1st day of work I got really sick.. I suspect Dehydration.. but for the most part it's all good. = ) I also hit a lucky streak and won $110 in scratchers. So it looks like my luck has turned around. = ) I start work again tomorrow! Also, Brandon got a job with SVK Marketing... so life is good. What else what else? I finished reading Love The One You're With.. I don't know if I said that already and began reading Eat, Pray, Love.... You can read my reviews on the books and other books on my OTHER new blog The Lost Book Reports.

Countdown till My 21st Birthday -- 87 more days!

Another Day.. Not Another Dollar...YET

Hmm, not much going on In the life of Kelsey.

Went Back up north to San Jose for 4th of July which was quite pleasant. Enjoyed hanging with family and my besties Natalie, Natasha and Natasha's Boyfriend Shane.. As well, as my Fiance Brandon. It was filled with games of Apples to Apples, Taboo and Scrabble's newest game SLAM! catching up, laughter and amazing FOOD! The rest of my week up north was pretty plain jane, although I did enjoy a nice spa day and Los Gatos' The Spa with my mom. BTW, I definitely recommend The Spa. The prices are fairly decent for the services you get and the offer a variety of services.. (no not THOSE kind of services).. Ladies, there dressing room is a womens heaven and do not visit with out a steam shower. Then later on Brandon and I drove down south together given he is moving to Santa Barbara...

The Drive down was alright, minus me suffering severe car sickness; which isn't something I usually get. We unpacked since Brandon is sharing a small room with his friend.. I offered my apartment as storage for these things.. plus I'm sure he'll visit a lot.. so they won't be too missed. Before he left we spent time at Disneyland and California Adventure..Got a glimpse of World Of Color, which from what we saw it looked great! Unfortunately, you need Fast Passes to get any front views of the show... So, going to have to wait awhile before we see it. I also got a new kitten.. very young, tiny and an orange tabby. She is VERY cute and after LONG talks and voting, I finally named her Martini.

My other cats are not too thrilled with Martini and it's funny cause since I got her my cats stopped acting like kittens and started acting like bitchy old cats. It is funny and sad to watch Martini desperately try to win their approval. The only major problem with her is the fact that I had to potty train her.. however, there has yet to be an accident since.

As far as life, I had an interview with a company today and It seemed to go really well and I start Shadowing at the end of the month. Besides that it has been CRAZY hot down here and makes my apartment bearably HOT.. So a lot of time in the pool, watching tv, walks every other day and reading. Although, my reading is still taking me forever. I am still reading Love The One You're With by Emily Giffen. Who's books I could sing praises for all day long.

SO.. right now, that is my boring life.

Under Pressure

There has been something I've been struggling with. The pressure of following the path you should and the pressure of wanting to do things my own way. The reason this is a struggle for me; is because there are things I know I SHOULD do, I know I NEED to do, but sometimes what I should do and need to do aren't how I want to do them. I would rather start my businesses now and kick butt, than take the time... Go to school, get my degrees,start working at a company work my way up and by the time I'm 30 finally make enough money to start a life. I don't want that. I want to start my business NOW, I want to make enough money to start my life NOW or at least before I'm 25. I get so stressed out because... I have SO many great ideas and so much passion and I feel I am always told I need to wait, I need to do it, this set way. I don't do well when I'm put into a box. I can't work that way.

My life plan down here keeps changing because, I'm trying to please the norm, while pleasing myself and I'm learning that, I can't pull myself in two different directions and be happy.. and everytime I compromise and please both needs I'm still not completely happy.

The Want- Get My AA and BA. Be Successful and Make Money. Own My Own Businesses.

The Comprise - Go to school, get a part-time job. Eventually get my AA and BA, make some money and eventually start my career = Not Happy

The Revision - Do Online School, Get Full-Time Job, Make A Lot Of Money.= Potential Happiness, but not what I want.

The New Plan - Do Online school, Get a Part-time job(not even going to be picky), make a business plan, get a business loan, open my own business. = HAPPY

I'm tired of waiting, I'm done waiting it's time to go at it gung-ho and do it my way. I want to be successful and accomplished by 25. I don't want to START at 25. I found out this is me this is what I do, I need to not wait for what I'm suppose to do, for someone to hold my hand. I learn doing it my way, even if it's harder. Will I mess up? Sure, but will I eventually succeed? YES! Here we go this it. I'm ready to start my business. I'm ready.

Back to Reality

Lately, I have been obsessing over some of the reality shows... and I can't help BUT get absorbed in some of these shows and form my own opinion. Yes, I am aware not everything is what it seems, but their are some things you just can't edit THAT well. I'm going to be giving my opinions on a shit load of reality show.

The Hills- This show died when Lauren Conrad left, I still watch it, but more out of habit and because it's before The City.

The City- I love love love this season! Whitney is well whitney, her line is coming together and I'm enjoying her. Kelly Cutrone, is amazeballs, she is all about tough love. Roxy, sometimes, I love her and sometimes I hate her. but to be honest I think why most of us still tune in, is to watch Olivia and Erin. Olivia is a self-entitled BITCH! After all the stunts she has pulled, the way she talks to her bosses... she should have been fired by now. Anyone else would have been. I love Erin's attempts to get Olivia fired and although, I think it sometimes may make Erin look desperate... come on? If you had to work with someone who was constantly snooty, walks around like their shit don't stink, and can't even do their job. You would act like that too.

The Real Housewives of New Jersey- This Show is just a train wreck. I stopped watching it half way through, they are ALL crazy and trashy.

The Real Housewives of New York- I have grown to love this show.. I watched Season 1 than got over it... cause of all the bitchiness. However, this last season I tuned in late and fell in love. Everyone had been bagging on Bethanny half the season. Which I think she was greatly mis-represented. Everyone else really doesn't do THAT much for me as, I can't see me ever actually being friends with them... However, I do love the newest addition, who is just kinda there and enjoying life. Now, that Kelly Bennisinom or whatever is legitimately CRAZY. I mean this woman needs to see a therapist, talk about uneducated psycho-babble and the weirdest ability to actually re-write history. Bitch, needs some meds.

Bethanny Getting Married?- This follows Bethanny (from the real housewives of NY) and her life with her Fiance, getting married and being Pregnant. I love Bethanny, she has really stolen my heart. She reminds me in a lot of ways my mom and her relationship with her fiance reminds me a lot of my relationship with Brandon. She is funny and she is normal. I cannot wait to continue watching the season.

The Bachelorette - I was So excited when I found out the Bachelorette was going to be Ali! Mind you I have never watched an season of The Bachelor or Bachelorette till this season and I only watched the bachelorette cause I watched the Bachelor before. My only problem with this show is the rose ceremony mainly because I grow attached to a lot of these guys and feel so heartbroken when many of them don't receive a rose. I mean Ali has gotten rid of some great guys, but they weren't right for her I could see that. As for this past episode I am SO SO SO glad that she finally got rid of Casey. This kid was scary stalker possessive crazy. Although Justin Is cute, I stumbled upon a spoiler and know that the other guys being mean to him and their suspicions were correct... (unfortunately) which upsets me. Knowing some great guys went home, for him to be there. My Top 3 picks are Kirk, Chris L. and Roberto. I like the other guys but these are the true blue men she needs.

Hmmm.. what else? Of in other news last seasons Bachelor Jake and his fiance Vienna (the women Ali competed with) have broken up and I want to say I am happy since I NEVER liked Vienna and I continue not to like her. Her and Jake officially broke up Today and this chick is ALREADY doing TV interviews and playing up that she is such a victim (which I call BULLSHIT on) I mean the girl took a perfectly staged picture of her break up letter, with the engagement ring next to it.. WHO does that!? Bitch is crazy.

I think that is about it for my reality show opinions. Have an Amazing Night

Twenty-One

Hello Party People!

Starting off first.. I have a joint blog with my fiance.. so If anyone.. and my anyone I mean ONE... of you readers would like to check it our... please feel free to do...
http://brandongregorio.blogspot.com/

Now, off to my thoughts going on in my brain now.. So much. I just posted my 1st blog entry on my joint blog and that is exciting...
I am Now home in Toluca Lake and having a blast. A lot to say really and I'm sure, I will forgot half the things I wanted to say while typing this. We will start off with my Trip to San Jose... 2 weeks ago I made a trip to San Jose.. For several reasons.. My Mom's birthday.. she turned a beautiful 30 years old and honestly hasn't aged a day! ; ).. on top of that was my brother in-law Nick's Graduation and Going Away Party (to boot camp) and Linnea asked me to baby sit Alec and Makenna Memorial Weekend. Which I was glad to do. My trip started a little drive back the 7th (Monday). Brandon was with me the weekend before for our 1 year of engagement so on the 24th (monday) I decided to drive up with him and than fly back down on the 8th (tuesday). We scrambled to clean, my house... pack and get our kitties all situated....this was the longest I had ever left them on their own. The trip ended up being pretty much a bust... Minus hanging out with B mostly. Brandon and I both had to work the night of Nick's Graduation.. which, we were okay with cause we'd make it up to him by being at his grad. party.. which Nick than decided he didn't want because he wasn't going to join the marines anymore! So besides My mom's birthday and babysitting.. I had come up for nothing... I for the most part enjoyed the trip though and came home Tuesday night(the 8th) to 2 alive cats and a surprisingly STILL clean place.

What else...what else. I have seen 3 movies since the trip and now. Killers (with Brandon, Tim Burton's/Disney's Alice In Wonderland and Shutter Island. Killers was a decently good and funny movie.. probably not worth what we paid, since we watched the movie in Oakridges XD theater... (Which is a bigger screen, more seats, and WAY more comfortable seats) The movie could have been a little bit longer and had more actual plot to it.. but it was the perfect date movie for Brandon and I. Alice in Wonderland was alright has well.. Visually it was stunning and the story line was really good, but I'm glad I waited to watch it OnDemand than see it in theaters. I have never been a huge fan of Alice In Wonderland though.. so, I didn't have high expectations in the first place.. Then, there was Shutter Island. Which was a great psychological thriller and Martin Scorcese can do no wrong. It is NOT as scary as it portrays it to be and is definitely an intriguing movie.

Also, Since I have been home.. I have finished reading L.A. Candy by Lauren Conrad. Which was a decent book. Not a MUST read but nice, light, fun read for us girls. Than I read The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner by Stephenie Meyers. For those, who don't know the book. It's really a "short story" about one of the newborns from the Twilight Sagas: Eclipse. It is basically shows the newborns story.point of view.. instead of Bella's. I originally found out about the book from Perez Hilton.. Saying that as a gift to her followers Stephenie Meyers put the short story up for free on the website... I being the OCD weird person I am debated if I wanted to actual buy the book or read it for free. A few things made my Decision. 1. I prefer reading actual BOOKS 2. It wasn't expensive and money from the book went to the American Red Cross and 3. I just wanted to complete collection for my series.. even if it wasn't the actual saga books it tied into them. Overall I enjoyed the book more than I though I would. Now, I am beginning to read Love The One Your With by Emily Giffin. If you have read my blogs, you may notice this name come up often.. I have become a big fan of her books because, they are real woman, and real woman experiences and thoughts and it's funny. I am excited to start this book, and just as excited to discover she has a new book out as well.

Oh, those sleeping pills are definitely kicking in now... being home Has been Nice.. not too eventful but nice. I have been going on my walks, which keep me in shape and get me out of those house.. Today, on my walk so many people slowed their cars down to point, wave and take pictures of me.. I guess they thought I was famous.. which is funny cause i'm NOT.. but I didn't ruin their fun.. I just smiled and waved back.. (btw I had a hat and sunglasses on..so my face wasn't exactly clear)Friday (the 11th) I drove down to Irvine and enjoyed the day with Natasha and Her friend Bobby. We shopped,ate and talked. GOOD DAY. It was really fun, especially all the dumb jokes that natasha and I make up. Hmm.. besides that nothing TOO crazy. Alright... can barely keep my eyes open.. NIGHT!

HAHA WOW... I ended and than posted this without even addressing what my actual Title means. 21. I turn 21 in roughly 4 months! So this is a crazy night and fun night for most people. However here is my Delemma.... my 21st birthday falls on a MONDAY! Uhm, people, have school, work, etc. So... that won't be too fun. I'm also, the only one of my friends who will be 21. So, simple solituion would be have your birthday at a places that serves alcohol but I can still have underage people with me.. I.E. a resturant of some sorts and Just have my birthday later in the weekend... the latter issue is the real problem. My birthday is only 6 days away from Halloween, so most people will be in Santa Barbara.. so I will have to celebrate it a week...2 weeks,, after my real 21st... THAN I realize that I only have 3 best friends. Natasha,Brandon and Natalie. and Natalie will be in England. Leaving.. just Natasha,Brandon and I.. which actually isn't a HUGE problem.. but I want my closest friends there and I want a PARTY. lol. I'm sure I will figure this issue out.. but it was just something that was bothering me! Okay, Night for REALS