I Am Blessed

Everyone had their good days and their bad days, but the one thing I always need to remember is how blessed I am. I am blessed to have found my loving and amazing fiance, I am Blessed to have the friends that I still have.. cause those are who real friends are and most of all to have such an AMAZING family.

I am Blessed.

I am blessed to have the opportunities that I have been given thanks to the love, support and generosity of my family. There is this saying that I got from my friend Natalie "Friends are the family you wish you had" which makes sense because friends really know you in a different way than your family does. However, family would (at least they should) always be there for you to support you. REALLY they should unless you've committed some horrible unspeakable act. Otherwise, family never lets you down. At least mine doesn't. I may not always see eye to eye with my family, but I know that they love me and I love them. I am Blessed.

It amazes me about how some people don't value family as much. How some people can be SO SO SO SO SO SO selfish and delusional. I feel sorry for the people who don't have family, but if you can rise above that, say "fuck you" and find people who love you and support you. Then You are Blessed.

We often take for granted how blessed we are.

Parenting For Dummies

I have a love/hate relationship with Perez Hilton. Especially as of lately, since a lot of is postings have been posted late and can be miss-informed. However, he has been talking a lot about Lindsay Lohan and her family and all their drama. I know that everything is not what it seems from the outside looking in; but..... this is OBVIOUSLY a dysfunctional family.

For the past 3 years or so... Lindsay as been known more for her trips to rehab,DUI's, Arrests and partying every night than the fact that she was once a successful model/actress/singer. All we hear now is about her skipping her court appearances to go shopping, being bankrupt, partying to hard, making false allegations towards her ex, stealing, and getting dropped from roles. I mean she is so bad, that directors refuse to work with her and the Jersey Shore cast gets paid more than she does for club appearances! Seriously, this chick needs help!

The worst part is that her "concerned" father is a fame whore and her mother is in complete denial and likes fame pimping her daughters out. I have never seen a mother despite all evidence proving otherwise, continues to say her daughters career is doing amazing, that she is not bankrupt and that she is completely and totally sober. REALLY? REALLY?! Have we not seen where this will lead too. It is SO bad that LA newspapers have ALREADY written Lohan's obituary. We all see it and the person who can do the most to stop her and help her enables her and not only enables her but allows her younger daughter to be exposed to it. Ali, Lindsay's sister now lives with her in LA and the have been spotted clubbing together constantly (FYI: Ali is 16) and it doesn't help that their Dad just uses Lindsay's problems to gain him some camera time. It really and truly is unfortunate.


IN OTHER NEWS....

Life for me has been okay. Was a little stressed for a little bit, cause Brandon was kicked out, so I was naturally worried for him.. but he has a plan and I am happy for him. I am also happy because he came down to visit me. The first 2 days we didn't do much but hang out; but yesterday we decided to go to Disneyland and it ended up that his friends Kevin and Michelle were visiting Disneyland at the same time. So we spent the night hanging out with them at Disneyland and we had SO SO SO much fun. I really enjoyed it cause it was our first time hanging out with another couple and on top of that they are married; so we had a better understanding of each other since Brandon and I engaged. Then this afternoon Brandon and I went back to Disneyland and had such a fun day. I will be sad for him to leave, but I'm visiting San Jose next weekend ; so it will only be a 3 day difference.

I have decided to stay here for the summer and work my butt off working, while taking online classes. I am really excited to work and take the Online classes. I'm thinking of doing Dog Walking for a little bit. Mainly, cause it is good money, my hours and I get a work out. I got this idea, because I take Walks around Toluca Lake everyday and see people walking their dogs. So, I thought about all the rich people in Toluca Lake who have dogs and need them walked. HA perfect. We will see how that pans out... but in general I LOVE Toluca Lake and I LOVE the houses in Toluca Lake, I just want to buy them all! Hmm, well as usual. This has exhausted me. Night.

Maturity Vs Immaturity

There is a fine line between maturity and immaturity, that is different in different situations and doesn't always involve age. There is the literal sense of being mature - which is older and more life experience/growing and the literal sense of immature - still having growing up to do. In most people no matter what their age be, still have "immature" qualities but nothing that would make you say that person is immature.

I think you find maturity and immaturity in the cases of Drama. Almost everyone hates drama, but usually has some sort of drama in their lives. I personally try to avoid drama... doesn't mean I don't have drama or people trying to cause drama. I think when drama begins, you have to know your opponent, know your principles and know when to either stick up for yourself or when to just ignore it.

The internet is like the fuel to the fire of immaturity and drama. I love Facebook and I love status updates, i love telling people how I feel,what I'm doing, etc. Even if no one really cares. I also for the most part like to keep it real; you just have to know when it's time to speak and when it's time to keep your mouth shut. Ah... keeping your mouth shut, something to be honest; i'm not so good at. I like the truth and I like people to know the truth; but I don't ever want to seriously offend anyone...a balancing act really. And yes, sometimes I just wabt to be the bitch and tell it like it completely is; sometimes I do want to call people out, but THAT would be immature. when it comes to the internet you need to know these things, cause this is how drama begins. However, it's not always the speaker who instigates the drama but the reader who may start the drama.

Example:
If the speaker states a fact w/o calling out/mocking any form of rudeness towards a person/place or thing. -Mature, not instigating
If Reader decides to get offended and call out speaker therefore starting a problem - immature,instigator
If speaker personally calls out,mocks and belittles a person -immature,instigator.

The point is either side can be immature, it just depends on who causes the drama. I have seen this happen more then once and it is a shameful thing. Doing so , on the internet usually gives less credit to maturity on either side, but does not change the fact that the instigator is almost always the immature one.Mainly, when making drama out of nothing. I could go into more depth, but shall refrain for it is time to say good-bye and enjoy my fiance's visit.

Stalker or Just Great Detective Skills.

I have this skill, where when bored.. I am really good at finding out things about every body's lives. It isn't even a necessary need to know; I, for the most part don't even care. I just do it. I just wind up finding stuff out about people through Facebook,google,twitter,myspace,blogger, etc. Some people say this is stalker status, I on the other hand think I just have really good detective skills. I believe it's not a stalker like habit because I have no malignant intentions with the information I learn.

There are times when I do want to learn things about people though and then this skill becomes an AMAZING habit to have, still creepy but useful. Again, not really something I care about just want to know. I think every women has at least ONCE in there life googled there Exes new girlfriend. It's not that you are jealous and want him back. It's you want to know that she is horrible and not as cool as you are. Really, it is. You don't want your ex back, but you want him to want you back. HA. Usually this search and stalk ends up blowing up in your face, cause usually the girl is generally like-able and maybe under different circumstances you could be friends. Fail. Now, this can backfire on you if you ARE a person who still has feelings for your Ex. In that case, I advise you do not do this. Do not google,stalk your exes girlfriend, it will end up hurting you more then you are already hurting. Move on.

I also, have an obsession with finding out other peoples drama. I find this to be the best type of drama to be involved it though, because at the end of the day. It doesn't personally affect you. My fiance will deny it, but even he will sometimes to do it. Someone will say " So and so cheated on so and so" and then the other will reply " I know, what a loser how could so-so, do that to so-so, they seemed so nice" and then we discuss and analyze there life. Pathetic, maybe. Entertaining, most definitely.

Keep Denying

I have always been opinionated, but as far as politics go, I share fairly moderate views for a Republican. In politics I believe both sides have there problems but as of lately I will more willingly side with the Right then the left.
For those who know me they would know that I am not a big fan of Obama. Never have been and honestly, never will be.
My problem doesn't just lie with Obama, it lies with the fact that people voted for Obama. That people believe in Obama and think he is so amazing, despite all the FACTS against him.
FACTS! Not just heresy, not just the conservative talk show host and FOX news "bias" media. FACTS! My problem is when people start denying facts. When people start making excuses for the facts. Instead of owning up to it. It's like a mother protecting her child who just murdered another human being "he didn't really mean to do it, he's a nice boy really." Bullshit, Bullshit, Bullshit!! The liberals say "Obama he's not a socialist, he's not a Muslim extremist, he's not an elitist" but everything he has done,his WHOLE life says differently. He's even admitted to these things in his own books. Yet, somehow self-admission isn't good enough.
Keep Denying that Obama isn't a socialist when he himself was a member of Democratic Socialists of America (DSA); Keep Denying he isn't a communist when the Communist Party of the United States of America as well as DSA endorsed his Campaign.
Even the company he keeps is all wrong, yet the liberals claim "Guilt by Association" I'm sorry, but being friends with people like William Ayers,Marilyn Katz,Bernadine Dohrn,Saul Alinsky,Rev. Jeremiah Wright and so many others.
William Ayers: you may have heard of him, in the 60's he was wanted as a domestic terrorist for bombings. Obama claims to not have known about this and to not have known William Ayers all that well. Yet, William hosted an event his home launching Obama's run for state senate.
Marilyn Katz: Who is a radical leftist, who participated in a guerrilla tactics force. Caught by undercover cops, instructing other members how to use weapons and guerrilla nails. She went on the be Obama's campaign organizer.
Bernadine Dohrn:Ayers wife is someone who has been on the FBI's 10 most wanted listed and who said at a radical democratic society gathering "Dig it! Manson Killed those pigs, then they ate dinner in the same room with them, then they shoved a fork into a victim's stomach"
Saul Alinsky: who is also a leftist radical. Wrote the book Rules for Radicals, was an attorney for ACORN. A man who has openly claimed to be a Marxist (as well as Ayers) and someone who Obama has openly said is his mentor.
Rev. Jeremiah Wright: He is the Reverend at the Trinity Unity Church in Chicago (TUCC.org). A church Obama had been attending with his wife and family for many years. The Reverend even was chosen to marry Barrack and Michelle. However, he too is a radical, but he is also a black supremacist. He talks about h=the superiority of the black man, constantly. If black was changed to white, the world would go crazy in a frenzy about the unjust. He has constantly given sermons about how America deserved AIDS and 9/11 how it was the white Christians faults that led to this. Obama claims to have not known this side of Wright. Yet, how can you know this person for 20 years, attend his services and listen to those hateful sermons and say you have never seen that side of a person. A man who also believes in Black Muslim and the power of Islam. How can you not know?

When he lived in Indonesia as a citizen (which by the way does not allow dual citizenship) with his Mom. Obama talked about how his mother was about of the communist party there and about how his mother constantly taught him to not be arrogant and stupid like those Americans. How?! are you not in SOME way affected by this?! I Just do not understand! I could give lists upon lists of socialist associations Obama has been apart of or had contact with.

How?! How do we keep denying. That he is not a socialist. Are we America that much in denial, to realize we have allowed a Marxist to rule our country or is that what you really want. Are you done with the American Dream? Are You done being the capitalist country that gave some many immigrants from socialist and communist countries hope?! If so, if you really aren't denying that he is in FACT a socialist, then fine. Leave AMERICA then America is the home of the free,home of the brave. The land of hopes, dreams and opportunity. If you don't like it then go to the socialist countries. Move there, and leave America how many of us still like it.

Where to Begin?

I've been lazy about updating this. = (
Where to begin? Where to Start?
Life as been going pretty well... March Came and went. Nothing TOO exciting. At the end of March, Brandon came to visit, but mostly he came down for a LAN in Moreno Valley. For those who don't know and LAN is a tournament for computer nerds (haha) Brandon plays Counterstrike Source and I guess, if amazing at it or something. So him and his buddies made a team called GX and competed. Thursday night I picked him up at the airport and basically we just fell asleep. Then Friday, we went horseback riding at Griffith Park Equestrian and well rode horses. That was a lot of fun and was interesting riding horses in LA, tunnels under freeways, bridges over man made rivers.. fun stuff. After we went to the Burbank Town Center and Then I cooked us some dinner = ) The next day his team met us at my apartment and before we left for Howies in Moreno Valley (for them to practice) we had lunch at Paty's, where we also had a Miley Cyrus/Liam Hemsworth Siting. After, we left for Howie's and got stuck in LA traffic, but not JUST ANY LA Traffic, LA traffic + 3 Car accidents. OK, this is boring. On the way to practice I got sick.... and felt bad cause on tourny day (sunday) I missed half of Brandon's games due to being sick. Eventually, i felt better and drove myself to Moreno Valley to "cheer" them on. His team ended up winning 1st place. After That, we drove back up to San Jose for my spring break; where we didn't really do much since all my friends already had spring break and Brandon had work. Easter was a nice day. Sat. we drove up to El Dorado to stay withh his Grandparents on his Mom's side then Easter morning; after Brandon and I found the baskets we made for each other we drove To Granite Bay Brunch with his mom's family at his Aunt and Uncle's Home. After That we drove to Elk Grove to his Grandma and Granpa Gregorio's to have dinner with that side of the family. Overall it was a great day. Now. I am back in LA and bored, but LOVING it.Just need to find a job and decide how my summer is going to be like.

Also, I have read 2 books. I'm not sure If I told you about Baby Proof my Emily Giffin, but overall I liked the book. Not as much, as I like her first to books, but it was witty and funny and in ways realistic. I also, like how she tied characters from his first 2 books into this one. After that I read "Chelsea,Chelsea, Bang, Bang" by Chelsea Handler and was as usual throughly amused by the book. It's a great read and will definitely make you die of laughter. Now I am reading Sean Hannity's new book "Conservative Victory" and although I am only 20 pages into. I am outraged; love the book, but am outraged by how our country elected Obama.Absolutely disgusted and outraged.

Now, it is time for bed.

Long Time....

I Don't Even Know, Why I'm Posting a Blog really... but, I guess.. it's because it has almost been a month since I posted. Although, I doubt... anyone was fretting that I haven't written a blog in a few weeks.. nor do I think anyone besides my mom actually read my Blogs. In case you didn't notice I tend to Have a need to Capitalize letters in words that do not NEED to be capitalized. I just do it, I don't know why.. it's more of a compulsion.

BLAH, So.. I have been pretty much sick on and off these past few weeks. Which is basically why, I have not written yet. So as far as school is concerned, it has been fine. As far as job searching has been.. EH! I guess my problem is because I don't want a typical job. I refuse to work at a restaurant again. I NEED experience, I need to be able to put something else on my resume, besides being a waitress. I need creditability. Minus, jobs in general being scarce; it is hard to find a job I want. Then, if I do find a job I want, that meets most of my requirements. Something gets in the way.. such a SCHOOL. Which is annoying, since I am going to school to get better jobs.. oh the Irony. .

On top, being sick has ruined my sleep schedule. So, now i'm tired all day and up all night!

I have read many books Since we have last chatted. I have read "My Sister's Keeper" and "Dear John". I loved loved loved loved loved "My Sister's Keeper" it was perfect and the ending was just unexpected. However, I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE the movie, to anyone who has seen the movie and thought they now have "read" the book, WRONG. The movie is absolutely NOTHING like the movie. Basically, the director,producer,screenwriter, whatever thought it would be nice to the have a famous bestselling book as the title of there movie take the basic concept of the movie and then change everything to what they wish the book had been. It was really horrible. I was disappointed in the actors as well. Alec Baldwin,Cameron Diaz, and Abigail Breslin, did an okay performance, definitely not up to their caliber of acting and then worse of all that they would even sign on to do this movie!
and for the acclaim that the movie Dear John has been getting (which I have not seen) I did not fall in love with the book, so maybe the movie will do something for me. Now I'm reading, "Baby Proof" by Emily Giffin and it took awhile for me to get into, but now I am really enjoying it. I like Emily Giffin's books and writing A LOT.

Mmh, Tired. Good Night.